Bad Temper :(

I know

My temper is bad

I juz dun like

U irritate me

when my threshold of irritation is

50% lower than normal range

I juz dun like

U irritate me

when im having Pre-menstrual Syndrome

Few days of constipation

And a lot of feelings awaiting for expression

I know

I can be nice

Give you warm and fake smile

Lots of patience

Pretending that Im quite understanding

But i failed

Coz my temper is bad

Im true emo

****Bad gal*****:(:(:(

Family Medicine Posting

Well..this is the 3rd week of my final year..

Im so "lucky" to start with family medicine posting, attached to Klinik Kesihatan and Pusat Perubatan Primer.

Doctors, MA, nurses are very nice over here..

(Although there are always some that hate and ignore medical students, i dun know why, but some forget that they are once medical students like us, and some forget that medical students are going to become doctors in future.)

But, i still enjoy this posting very much, as i really impressed with the way of family physicians in treating patients. They are the one that really treat patient as a WHOLE, and not to treat patient as a HOLE with disease.

And, i also realized the difference between health service in rural and urban area.

I nearly fainted when go into toilet of KK batu.9, really cant imagine how patients are going to collect urine in such lousy and dirty toilet without proper water supply, flush, soap for handwashing and rubbish(pads, underwears, tissues.....) on the floor. So disgusting.

Maybe government should upgrade all these services in rural area, before spend $$ to build more 5-star hospital in the country.

Today, i got my mini exam with doctor. Although i passed, but i still feel sad as really forget alot of knowledge that learnt in 3rd n 4th year. When discussed about "anemia", my mind is just blank no wonder how i squeeze my brain T.T ..need to study hard lo!!

Before ending, just wan2 share a short story.

Yesterday i went to visit patient's home, as i couldn't find the road, so I stopped by a shop to ask around.

I approached the uncle with nice smile and polite tone:

me : uncle, 你好，请问 Jalan 2 系边度？？

uncle (with irritated face)：你没见到我很忙嚒？？ 人地忙个时候你不要问我啦！！

WALAU A.. uncle u dun need so 串gua??

打开门做生意都这样，生意怎样兴隆？？

Nvm, I got PPD skill, and I believe in karma.

So I say "thank you" to him and chaoz...

The moral of the story is " Always treat people as you wan to be treated"

And really "thanks" to this uncle who becomes my bad role model,

Im not going to become like u in future...

*********End**************:):):)

是你，踩到我的底线。

以后，不要怪我，不留情。

People, u still wan2 study medic ah??

http://blog.thestar.com.my/permalink.asp?cat=1&id=30376

Ask your friends/sister/brother/juniors/cousin etc etc...

Think twice before step into this profession.

No, is think TEN times.

It is not as noble as what u/ur parents/ur teachers/ur uncle aunty..... think (in Malaysia).

Have u ever think of, why there is Nurses' Day,

but no people declare 1 day in 365days as "Doctors' Day"?

If u juz wan2 earn alot of $$$, go2 join direct sales la...

They can earn double/ triple more than u ;)

tak payah belajar susah-susah di sini.

P/S: No offence to anyone, juz too excited after reading this article as finally there are someone who voice out doctors' rights.

无聊的咒怨

我知道没人想听

可是我只想不停的怨。

我希望我有三寸不烂之舌

可以把所有不满意不甘愿不爽不对不和我心意的事情

都念到对为止。

一个爱念的女人是恐怖的。

我希望我可以变得很恐怖。

恐怖到所有人都因为怕被我念

会自动自发反省做好事情。

到时候我就可以全身而退

继续当一个和蔼可亲的人

呵呵~

巧克力

我小心翼翼地解开了锡箔纸，就像进行一场神圣的仪式。

然后，让巧克力随着温度，慢慢在口里融化。。。

融化了生活中的无奈，

融化了对他和她的不快，

融化了，一切一切，不想记起的事情。

也融化了，思念。

远远地，希望你也能分享这过分的甜。

~Update~

okie.. i know i didnt update my blog for the past 3 months..n now my final exam over ady, so no more excuse for my super-laziness..

Alot of things happened..n i dunno how to re-arrange them one by one..juz can say, this is the most emotional study week tat i ever had (which is not related to the stressors of exam~.~)

Friends..
Relationship...

Problems still going on..

If i cannot change people, mayb Im d one that should change myself..
But i juz wan2 live for myself.
I know I am selfish.

Okie,
hope i can update more frequently after this..
coz im going to hav long holiday :)
~PEACE~

这个礼拜。。

这个礼拜，发生了很多事。

所以，心情有点纳闷。

曾经以为自己就算不能掌控大局，至少也还能让情况不太失控。
可是，危机感越来越严重。

因为有些事，任不得自己控制那么多。



[ 人事是非 ]

中学的时候，真的受够了这些事，常常听人家坏话讲来讲去，烦都烦死了，所以决定尽量远离人家的是非。 除非很讨人厌，否则就不要轻易批评人家。 想不到现在还是会因为无心的举动，而另人家不爽自己。算了，大学第四年了，曾经答应自己不能这样幼稚，处处去在意人家的想法。不吐不快，吐在这里后，我就选择忘记不去追究。我，不要求每个人喜欢我。我，只做我自己。



[感情]

好像很稳，却又觉得不够稳。想要开心，却不够开心。想要生气，却不能真正生气。一个人时想要两个人，两个人时却又想一个人。到底，还缺什么东西？？



[学业]

我讨厌讨厌讨厌讨厌讨厌讨厌眼睛。 不要以为看眼睛很容易。看到的时候，眼睛可以很美丽。看不见的时候，眼睛是最丑陋的东西。（那些演戏的都是骗人的啦！！ 三秒钟看一只眼睛，都来不及 focus 啦！！）



吐完了。。
希望，下个礼拜会更好。。。>.@

如果我变成回忆

词曲：TANK(吕建中)
演唱：TANK(吕建中)
累了 照惯例努力清醒着
也照惯例想你了
好怕一放心睡了 心跳在梦中
不听话的就停止了
听着 呼吸像浪潮摆动着
越美丽越让我忐忑
我还能珍惜什么
如果我连自己的脉搏 都难掌握

如果我变成回忆 退出了这场生命
留下你错愕哭泣
我冰冷身体 拥抱不了你
想到我让深爱的你人海孤独旅行
我会恨自己 如此狠心
如果我变成回忆 终于没那么幸运
没机会白着头发
蹒跚牵着你 看晚霞落尽
漫长时光总有一天你会伤心痊愈
若有人可以让他陪你 我不怪你

快乐 什么时候会结束呢
哪一刻是最后一刻
想把你紧紧抱着
可知你是我生命中的 最舍不得

如果我变成回忆 退出了这场生命
留下你错愕哭泣
我冰冷身体 拥抱不了你
想到我让深爱的你人海孤独旅行
我会恨自己 如此狠心
如果我变成回忆 终于没那么幸运
没机会白着头发
蹒跚牵着你 看晚霞落尽
漫长时光总有一天你会伤心痊愈
若有人可以 让他陪你
如果我变成回忆 最怕我太不争气
顽固的赖在空气 霸占你心里每一寸空隙
原来依然爱我的你痛苦承受失去
这样不公平 请你尽力 把我忘记



*很喜欢这歌词，写得很有意思，相信写出了很多身患顽疾者的心声。。

每天在医院里，看到很多生老病死。有些人有很顽强的生命力，无论如何都要坚强活下去；有些人却选择放弃，任生命流逝希望能早日脱离苦海。无论如何，请珍惜身边的人，珍惜自己的生命。。要知道， 每一次心跳，每一次呼吸，都是福气。

woohoo~~

see this in jyin's facebook picture..

taken from her autograph, written by standard 5 me.. ^.^

ya..handwriting was so ugly..haha.

anyway, juz realised that i wrote..

" I WANT TO BE A DOCTOR WHEN I GROW UP!!"

so innocent me... at tat time..

i thought my ambition at tat time was to become an artist?lawyer?or a TV host maybe??

I TOTALLY FORGET THAT MY AMBITION ONCE UPON A TIME WAS TO BECOME A DOCTOR

although im doing medicine now..hehe

ppl in this field (lecturers, seniors, juniors....)

always ask why u wan2 choose medicine??

because my dad always want me to become a doctor

because my lecturer said i should become a doctor

because,

i juz dunno what to be,

when i hav2 decide the path of my life.

sometimes..

juz let FATE decide everything.. ^.^

whatever will be will be, que sera sera

Yuna-Dan Sebenarnya

Lirik Dan Sebenarnya Yuna

Yuna-Dan Sebenarnya
oh bulan
jangan layan diriku lagi
pabila,
air mata membasahi pipi
dan lagu2 di radio seolah2 memerli aku
pabila,kau bersama yg lain
[Dan Sebenarnya Lirik]

adakah perasaaan benci ini sebenarnya cinta
yang masih bersemadi untukmu
dan sebenarya ku mengharapkan
di sebalik senyuman mu itu
kau juga merindui aku

ku enggan
berpura pura ku bahagia
ku enggan
melihat kau bersama si dia
oh ku akui cemburu
telah menular dalam diri
pabilakau bersama yang lain

adakah perasaaan benci ini sebenarnya cinta
yang masih bersemadi untukmu
dan sebenarya ku mengharapkan
di sebalik senyuman mu itu
kau juga merindui aku

pabila kau merenung matanya
ku rebah,
jatuh ke bumi
di saat kau benar-benar mahu pergi
seperti ku bernafas dalam air
adakah perasaaan benci ini sebenarnya cinta
yang masih bersemadi untukmu
dan sebenarya ku mengharapkan
di sebalik senyuman mu itu
kau juga merindui aku
oh

A very nice song, tat hav changed my perception on local malay music :)

AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH~~!!!!

I JUZ WAN2 SAY AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH~~!!!!!

too many problems recently..

need to release..

and YOU, yes i mean YOU

could u plz juz try to understand me more??

yesterday-today-tomorrow

YESTERDAY
Finally saw my X-ray
There were 2 curves on my backspine
Thoracic scoliosis deviated to the left
While lumbar scoliosis deviated to the right
Compensating each other
GOOD or BAD??

TODAY
Saturday again..
Not like usual..
This is a Saturday without him..

Stayed in room..
Studied few pages of neonatology....
Attended a forum about stigma disease...
And slept for more than 10 hours zzzzzzzzzzzzzzzz

A Sarturday which is so relaxing..
which i should appreciate..
before step into crazily-on-call-ing 5th year n housemanship.

TOMORROW
Going to join Chicken-Run
A marathon competition near timesquare
Heard that we hav2 run by holding an egg in a cone
Sound funny LOL

After tat going to meet him
Maybe??

TIME FLIES~~

just in a short moment..

and it is going to be another week..

~父亲节~

早上七点半，闹钟响了。

因为是星期天，所以很理所当然的赖床。

九点半，电话又响了！！

哦，吵醒了我的美梦。。。

原来是爸爸。

闲话畅谈了几句后，爸爸突然喷出一句：

“喂，你没有跟爸爸讲父亲节快乐啊？？”

炸到炸到炸到~~~~爸爸真可爱。。

所以就。。。 “父亲节快乐！！！！”

有点内疚，因为还要爸爸来提醒我。。

以前爸爸很严肃很酷，朋友都说我爸爸看起来很凶。

可是爸爸从来没有骂过我，真的。

最近几年，爸爸变得越来越可爱，讲话越来越废。。

哈哈，是好事来的。

爸爸，少抽点烟，少喝点酒啦。。

我还要让你以后多多享福的~~

*爸爸，这个世界上，应该不会有第二个男生比你的爱伟大了！*

~~Just Wondering~~

JUST WONDERING..

1. Why I cant enjoy doing my case write up??

2. Why I hav2 do a research that im not interested in??

3. Why my memory is so poor??

4. Why i always cant save $$$??

5. Why i juz cant hav a person tat plan and pay a vacation for me then i juz go2 enjoy??

BECAUSE..

1. I hate to do assignment.

2. I hav no choice s im stucked in a system tat always come out wif "brilliant" ideas.

3. Im not concentrating when study.

4. I cant control myself for not eating or buying something nice.

5. I never "sacrify" to plan a vacation for oth ppl.

Oh..i hav all d answers for all d problems..

but im juz keep on struggling in d same condition.

*CONFLICT*

my new frenzz~DORAEMON~

Ang Ang Ang~~

我的小叮当，终于有大叮当来作伴:)

小叮当是朋友的手信，大叮当是爱的礼物。

哈哈哈，以后将会有两个叮当帮我解决困难。

喜欢叮当，因为它总是不计较地帮大雄。

就算不耐烦，嘴上碎碎念，心还是软的。

如果有个人，能像叮当爱护大雄一样爱护我，那该多好？？

心情不好时，看一看叮当，就会觉得安慰。

朋友！！

以后就送我叮当吧！！ :P

ps: 有人在叮当的口袋里塞了一张很有意义的废纸，很无聊哦！！哈哈。

My sentiments of the day..

1. Nothing fixes a thing so intensely in the memory as the wish to forget it.

# ya..so if u wan2 memorise smthing, juz think of wan2 4get about it :P

2. Brain: an apparatus with which we think that we think.

# but actually we are not thinking at all.

3. Angels and Demons is a nice movie, even though i watched without subtitle.

# 2D version provided better sound effect, there was no subtitle at all so that u can pay more attention and listen. (Har?!)

4. Zanmai sushi is very delicious!! yummy yummy ~~~ nice to see and good to eat..

# mayb i should 4get about sushi king and support zanmai sushi more haha..

This movie is shot better than Davincci Code,

but Tom Hanks is acting the same expression since beginning til d end..

wasting his talent as a great actor.

Ewan McGregor, gave me more surprise.

He is very suitable to act s metamorphic.

热热热！！

KL真的很热！

皮肤马上干燥，身体马上发热气。

一整天汗流浃背，昏昏欲睡。

如果房间有冷气多好？？ （可是我对冷气敏感。。。）



这里四季如夏，应该找个地方避暑。

可是，我没有钱！！！

啊~~~钱钱钱~~~~

（算了，热到发神经了。。。）



p/s: going to start my new semester with orthopaedic posting tomolo..wish me good luck :)

我的朋友来KT。。。

我的朋友，去Redang 后，到KT玩。

他们两个，在唐人街，竟然从早上玩到下午！
他们到MadamBee， 和艺嘉妈妈谈天，吃了很多食物，一直说好吃好吃。
他们到那间不懂叫什么名的店，喝了已故David特调的果汁，连喝三杯，一直说好喝好喝。
然后，他们差不多就一直在唐人街串门子，和本地人说话。
最后一天，男生竟然还跑去和TTC老板打 BAdminton！！

以前，每一位外地朋友来到这里，都说KT很闷很显不好玩。。
相信很多本地人也认同。

可是我这对可爱的朋友，竟然做了很多我从来没做过的东西！
他们让我知道KT也可以很好玩。
活在这里十多年，从来没想过，到唐人街去了解一下民生，了解文化历史。
很惭愧。。

有时候，旅行真的需要这样，才会有收获，才会有意义。
能像他们这样旅行，真的很棒！！！
真的佩服+ 反省。。 ^.^

习惯和爱中间

“想要离开才发现，有一个人在习惯和爱中间。”
需要多久时间，两个人，就会处在习惯和爱中间？
有人说：“我最长的恋爱期，只有一年，可是已经感觉很长了哦！”
有人说：“I believe in long and stable relationship..” 所以她谈了五年恋爱，打算在两年后注册结婚。
也有人，在爱情长跑七年后，落得黯然分手的结局。

难道，爱了就不应该习惯？
难道，习惯了就不爱吗？

爱情要来要走，就像天要下雨，挡也挡不住。
所以，只能在还有爱情的时候，好好珍惜那美好时光。
所以， 没有爱情的时候，不要犹豫放手。

习惯了的爱，会变得越来越不像爱，
可是，习惯的爱，毕竟还是一种爱。。